The Hand Of Dentisy

Some day is hard to write blog, because I don't know what to say. Today is hard day. The kids' school was half day, they are out at noon. I don't have any clue why it is half day at school today. The kids are having meltdown when we got home from Smith's grocery store for food. They act like they are toddlers. Derek and I had headache because of them. They weren't good behavior in the store. They continued to be whine for the rest of afternoon. So Derek and I had enough so he went upstairs to get the medicines (sleep medicines) to calmed them down. So they, included Derek, took the naps. I was watching The Crown.

Being an adulthood and a parenthood is so HARD! I read the news stated that the house price and interest are rising. The grocery is also rising price. $100 is not enough food to cover for two weeks. Utah is becoming California. I can't make dinner everyday because the ingredients are so expensive to make a menu for one dinner. The kids are keeping hungry and hungry. I had a breakdown because of that. It is just unfair for human on the earth. We are stuck on the earth, we live here on the earth. That means we are suppose to be free of living, like the wild animals.

So I am knitting Lola's Choice fingerless mitts with the beads. One is down and one more to go. Knitting and Netflix are only to keeping me calm down with the chaos.

Hands~ we are work hard on the earth for the livings. It's not easy. One thing is so hard is restaurant, (Chuck-a-Rama) because I love it. I don't usually eat fast food restaurants. Only the real food like Chuck-a-Rama, their rolls are so damn good!

*sighs* but that is life. I am just glad that knitting and Netflix are existing. I don't know what to do without them.

Blur

All is blur right now. I got the new heavier drawers for my kitchen. The original was too cheap and break. One problem is~ we had a hard time to put the original pull handles on the new ones. Also we need to buy the long wheel for drawers to pull out. The original are shorter.

I finished two projects today. Purple owl hat for Emma. Emma was happy when I told her that I finished it.  Crochet beads necklace~ I prefer bracelet than necklace because it is too long to crochet with so fine yarn, my pinky finger is sores. So I will only make bracelet than necklace.

Knitting blur~ I still will have to knit one more of long strip of wrap by Kirsten Omdhal. It's 132 stitches cross rows. I really want to knit something new. I got a mail from Laura~ Lola's Choice yesterday. I love the surprised is what is inside of this mail that she mailed to her fan member knitters (I am one of them 😃).  I was just started knitting a swatch for to obtain the gauge called for in project. I picked fingerless mitts. Since it has a short yardage of yarn. I think that weird to have the beads on the socks. So mitts is better choice for me. But still want to find something fun easy to knit and watching Netflix. I am currently watching The Crown.

Food blur~ I really crave for Chuck-a-Rama, their rolls. Yummy. I love the way of homemade rolls that like pioneer made. I love 1800s food. Chuck-a-Rama is my favorite restaurant right now. I don't like fast food restaurants anymore, too cheap, and too oily. I am still on weight loss so far. I have nutruifood box to help me to lose some of weight. I am hoping to achieve the goal of 110 lbs.

Money blur~ You know money- we have to pay the bills for life. Boo! I just really want to go to Bora Bora or Hawaii or Caribbean islands. But nope, we have to pay our mortgage. I really need some of money to buy the stuffs for house projects~ like drawers above. We are getting our roof replace sooner. Our shingles are blew away off of our roof. It is really bad damaged roof right now. Oh what a joy of being an adulthood.

OK, I don't want to feel anymore of blurs, so I am going to watch The Crown to calm my mind and try to find something to knit.  

The Hardest Part Is: Attitude

When I read Yarnharlot blog today, as for me being deaf person~ I can't go to the retreat in Washington to be with the knitters and in the classes. This is cost about $1,500.00 per person. I can't afford for an interpreter! I did asked them for an interpreter, they don't answer me back that which it is hurtful. I don't know what to do. I have been always hate being DA person~ deaf. I hate it! When I was a little girl, I cried and cried and begged my parents for fix my ears so I can hear it. So the doctors said that it's won't working on me because I am so heavy die-hard deaf. I asked my parents why am I deaf? Why didn't Justin nor Jake become deaf?!? They don't know why. I was just born that way. If I were never deaf, I will never have met my husband. Being hearing would be MUCH easier life. It's so hard, I have to rely on my kids for the noise. I am nervous about my future when the kids are move out of my house. So I am hoping that the pet(s) will help me in the future. And one another is: I really want to go to Rhinebeck in upstate New York for wool festival fair. But who will interpreter for me and my husband? Yeah, that. I could take my daughter with me for this retreat and fairs so she can interpreter for me, maybe? Some of the people said: You can do it. You can do anything like hearing people do. For me, yeah right! Examples? You betcha. A pilot? An operator? An interpreter? Be secretary for President of United State? An army? Be teacher? An actress? A train driver? Taxi driver? Be CEO? A doctor? A dentist? You name it! I did wanted to be a teacher for elementary school (No, not for deaf schools, you see them almost everywhere, even in deaf community) that closer to my house. These above of the lists that are requirement to use headset, voice to talk, use telephone, etc that what deaf people CANNOT do! Some of the people said to me: You are so lucky, You are blessing, something like that~ No, I am not lucky person. I can't do what hearing people do. Get reality, you guys! (I am afraid of the polices, they usually yell at you and I couldn't hear it then they will shoot at me and I die!) There you go, that's why I don't social, party, go out in the city. That's why I REFUSE to get a job. I prefer to stay home. Etsy is good small job for me. So that one way how I got depression in my life.

What about family? Well, that is hard too. When I want to be involved, I always tap, tap, tap harder at my parents' shoulders to interpret for me. Sometimes they said no. Even in the theatre. I stopped go to the theatre a long time ago. So that how I started to knitting in my life when I am in full of hearing people around me. Derek's mother hates me when I do that, she said that it's not nice in front of her when we have family party or something like that. It's hurt me because she DOESN'T know how to be deaf and never has been in my shoes life. So I ignored her and go on knitting.

What about deaf community? Well, sometimes I wanted to met the new friends that are live closer to me than drive 100 miles away just for two hours party. Examples? You betcha. A short moment of chat with a stranger person in store, talk to the neighbors, talk to the companies who fixed my house, you name it. Sometimes I don't want to talk to the deaf people because they changed, they move, bad gossips/news, etc. I even don't have a best friend(always talk to each other everyday, always help each other, rely on each other, etc.)

What about my husband, Derek? Haha, I fucking LOVE him! That's one reason why I wanted to marry a deaf man so he knows how I feel. Both of us know who are our deaf friends/people and deaf community. Marrying him is the BEST thing of my life. Examples? You betcha. I don't have to be left out if he is hearing and talking to the people, go to the theatre, I make a lot of noises in the house, I don't want him to hear my farts, hear the music, talk to the stranger people in the store, I hate one simple sentence what hearing people talk about like they talk for 15 minutes~ one simple sentence is not 15 minutes worth of talk. I hate summary stories at the campfire, party, theatre, etc.

There you go. It's not easy, simple life. (I couldn't hear a fire alarm and carbon monoxide alarm, door ring bell, telephone rings, oven dings, laundry dings, my kids turned so higher volume on the TV up to 80 volume number~ that's loud and I was embarrassed front of the neighbors, yes they can hear from it)

It's so hard part of is attitude in the lifehood. I have to put a fake smile on my face for public and always said "I'm fine".

I am thankful for knitting that is existing and in my life.

No, I didn't finish a purple owl hat for Emma. Wrap is still in processing.

Feel Like Forever

Well, finally it is March~ spring month. I am so excited for spring upcoming. I was surprised that last January was not bad month. I usually have cabin fever, more depression, longer/darker in January/February. February was not bad month either until last week of February that I want March to be here. My purpose is for spring season to arrives. Now March is here. I feel really~finally move on with time when March came than in January and February. It always happens after Christmas. I hate longer, desperate, darker days. But one pro is~ more time of knitting and catch up on Netflix.

I started to knitting the kids' hats last month. I think I did mentioned this in earlier post Danielle Beer's daughter~ I gave a pink cat hat to her, because it is fitting her as longer as she is still toddler. I bought a purple owl a few days ago and I started it now~ you know, spring is upcoming this very sooner!

I finished Tool Box Cowl in two days ago. Right now, it is drying on the mesh blocker hanger. I love that blocker. I am so glad this project is so done! I don't want to see color~ orange again~ it's remind me of fall color. I want Easter colors.

Currently project~ Summit American Yak Wrap. I am using Frog Tree Alpaca Sport yarn. I did had high screamed recently after I found out that this yarn is discontinued! So I did looked and looked harder to find two more of those tan colors to just the amount of yards for this project. Whew, I did ordered it and they arrived at my mailbox. It came from Nebraska. My local yarn shop used to have them that where I did bought a while ago. They no longer stock these yarn up due to discontinued. I love that yarn. Hello! It's alpaca! So soft yarn.

Ok, I need to go back to work~ knitting and laundry.

Less Time To Write My Blog

I noticed that I am less and less to write my blog. I am using Instagram/Facebook mostly time. I can make a memories books from Instagram. I like to have something in my hand than online. The pictures are worth more than a thousand words. The pictures are just showing you than I have to write down to get visionary in your mind. I wanted to have a private blog, because blog is like a journal for personal, not for business. Blogger started a long time ago in 2000's. It is now 2017 with the new upgrades everything different than back in 2000. Sometimes the blog is confusing me with the new updates in internet~I am used to the first old ones than upgrade up over and over again. I know where to go with the pages, layout, link, etc but now I had a hard time to find, so I had to played around with my new upgrade blog to find where or which to click on.

Reeses~guinea pig~ is still much alive. When I hold her, I was trying to put her down on the floor to "exercise" around, because her home is box with no space to run. She LOVES home, every time I put her back to her home, she instant jumps off from me. Sometimes we forgot to close up her gate's door, I was surprised to see that she is still there. She never escapes. This is her 5th year life time. This year is probably her last year of her life time. She has a few lumps on her, she is getting older and older.

Knitting~ I am knitting Top This! Hat for the kids. The pink cat hat is too small for Emma, it's short length of cap. I am going to make another purple owl hat for Emma with the correct length of her age. I am currently knitting green elephant hat for Wyatt. I didn't finish the Tool Box cowl, I am trying to get finish before I start a new project. I already started to knit a gauge for next new project. But I want to get the another projects to finish first.

Beads~ I am crocheting the beads crochet necklace. I am obsessed with the beads. I love to watch this video here. I don't crochet. But this one I accepted, because it is hidden stitches with the beads. I love the feeling of the beads on rope.

Winter 2016/2017 wasn't that bad than I thought it will be. January is always depression month for me. Knitting and Netflix are so helpful and keep me company! I am catching up the movies. (Summer has no time for the movies~ DUH summer!) The weather is WORSE ever in the history! The snow was in waist length. We had a hard time to pull back our car out from garage because of the snow on the curve part. Snow~ A LOT! Yes, we did have flooding in Cache Valley. My basement had a small flooded. I panicked! Thank God for Derek's work schedule that he off from work. It was scary. It is not easy to be adulthood of own a house. I told Derek that we live in with parents will be very much easy life. He said fuck yes! But it is our turn. I miss my childhood. Growing up is trapping! We had so much of icicles on our roof, we had to break them often. One of our roof's shingle came off. I want spring to be here. I noticed that I don't love winter anymore. In my childhood is different than now I am. I love spring and summer.

Hello, 2015.. Wait, No- It is already 2017!

2017, huh?!? I am still thinking it is 2015. 2016 went so faster than before. Like the beginning of the top slide down to the end of bumpy slide. I did remembered when the spring was sprung- I was so excited that summer is coming. It came and gone in 2 days of blink eyes. But so far, I am good lately~ I always have January Blue. I am hoping this month I don't have bad blue like usually. I am planning on to watch the movies to catch up on netflix and knitting. Plus, of course, clean the house and exercising too. Yesterday, I was thought it was saturday, anyway we went to the park for the sled hill down. It was fun. I went on too! I want to! Why not? It was good panting work-out for me. Two years ago, I couldn't do it. I went on for 2 shed down, but yesterday I went on more than 5 times! I am improving.

Our christmas was okayest, We didn't went to my parents' house due to badly snowing outside on christmas day. We got white christmas! We went to Derek's parents' christmas party: let me tell you~ It is f*&%ing worse christmas ever I had! Derek's oldest brother blamed on us for the lousy gift for his teenager son. I made very best of points at him about the christmas. He did see that now. So I told Derek, we are NOT going for his family christmas party! We are GOING to my, MINE, me family party for christmas of 2017. I am not buying the presents for Derek's families. Only mine. (Derek's family are so rude, judgey, mean at us because his mother told at our faces (!!!) that we are cheapsake) I had enough of this! I told Derek that I married you, not for your family. Only you! He knows that I don't like his family since I met them. It was hard and it is still hardest!

Anyway, I got apple watch series 2!! Wyatt got more Nerf guns toy, Emma got more dolls, Derek got soap kit and more *&%$# tools (from his family).

Ok, that is it for now.

Happy 2017.

This Holiday Is Must Be Good!!!

Ah, yes. We usually get more money in between October to December. I love that! So I can shopping without stressful. I am almost done with christmas lists shopping.

I saw one house on the 1400 North, there is christmas tree already set up in a living room. I said to myself that is too early! I don't want to get my christmas tree up in early November because it will feel so forever and slower days until 25th of December. I am just focus on the autumn season now. I am enjoying the thanksgiving and autumn first.

Anyway, last Monday, we bought a brand new- NOT USED -car. It is 2016 black Hyundai Sonata Limited, only 200 miles. We had to traded it from our old Nissan 2009 Quest van, because it has too many, a lot, much, a millions of problems for every time I changed the oil in between 3 months since we bought it back in June 2013. Last week, our van broke down and we had to asked a stranger to helped us out to jump up the battery. I was so embarrassed. It is only once, but more than 5 times to jump up since bought it. Before we bought a new ones, Derek did went to Nissan shop and got a battery replaced. The worker of shop told us that our transmission is bad, get this- we replaced it in earlier this year and now it is again, I am not buying new one- $500! I need this money for christmas.  So I decided to have an enough of it. So we went to Hyundai Murdock and bought it. This time it has a warranty. Van doesn't have a warranty.

Van's problems:
1. trunk won't stay up, had to replaced it last year.
2. new battery twice
3. the slide doors' rubber are broke
4. leaking from the heavy rain on top
5. replaced transmission
6. The rugs are stink from wet outside
7. transmission fluid leak
8. new tires last spring due to the pressure low
9. gas recall
10. the driver seat is creak
11. fuse problems
12. warning light of low tires are so annoying!
13. beneath of starter, something is in a cell is really bad, a wire maybe
14. The AC isn't that cold enough in the summer.
15. The remote of key is getting worn out

So I had enough of it. I was planning on to keep this van for good, but nope. It eats our money pretty a lot. We had to use ford credit card and yes we are still paying on it even we have a new car.

Here's a photo:

It's pretty a lot of roomy inside. I was surprisedly. When we rented a car, most of them are so tiny, but not this one. Trunk is so roomy, so do the back seats for the kids from the front seats that are not hit the kids' legs. It has everything same we had van--top range; I hate basic car; especially movie dvd player. 

Good news: we have a lifetime of car wash in Murdock. It's so neat! Save our money from washing. So when its need to wash, we just show up the shop and ask for wash. Plus pro is that Hyundai is opens on Saturdays. Nissan is not opens on Saturdays (WTF!). It has a great mile of gas, it's double more than old van.

I am glad it is right time to get a new ones because of more money to home, so we had an enough of money to down payment deposit. 

We are happy now. Our money will thank for us. 

Oy! October Is Almost Gone!

No, I don't want October to be gone for next year. I freaky love October. I love Halloween. It's so much fun. I love pumpkin. I love special coffee drink in fall season: Pumpkin Spice Latte. (Get this, I had PSL for first time in a longgggg time, I don't usually drink latte- too much dairy, calories, whipping cream, low caffeine and sweet-y. I much prefer to drink just black coffee that which is high caffeine, zero calories.) I made homemade pumpkin pie, again get this, we don't usually eat a lot of the pies. Just one pie with homemade whipping cream.

We are repeating watch the Halloween movies: Hocus Pocus, Hotel Transylvania, The Great Pumpkin; Charlie Brown, The Smurf: Hollow, Mickey's Treat, Alvin and the Chipmunks Halloween, The Addams Family, Corpse Bride, Ghostbuster (2016), The Goonies, Monster High, and Trick or Treaters.

We went to Logan River Trail. I love the leaves fell on the floor. I love to walk in it. It was so beautiful.

We went to the Garden Market for special halloween activities. The kids wanted the pumpkin and paint them. It was free.

I sew the small tote bags for the kids and Christmas presents. I won't show the christmas presents part.

Dinosaur and Shopkins.

I am still working on socks, pink cape for Emma, one more a pair of socks, Mystery Knit A Long shawl, and cowl. I need to finish them first before I can cast on a new project.

I give up. I went to store and bought the costumes for the kids. I was planning for kids to wear again the same costume that they wore it last year to save money. Wyatt lost some of piece of his costume.

Emma: Monster High

Wyatt: Hulk

I will be Hocus Pocus Winnie. I just ordered the costume of her. We haven't decided for Derek's.

We went to American West Heritage Center for Halloween activities. We finally went to the Haunted Hollow in the forest. It was fun and a little bit scary. We couldn't take any pictures due to the dark and jumpy.


Here's of the Pumpkin Walk. I LOVE it! We went there twice, and are planning on to go back again. It's only once in a week of the year.

America flag

Skittles candy

The Late Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon

Doctor Who

Steve Job

The Winnie of Pooh

The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown

The another scene of Charlie Brown

The banner said "Who are you NOT going to vote?

I vote them NONE!

The night before christmas pumpkin. I love it. There are many of the craved pumpkin around. I have many pictures of them. I choose this one for my blog. (My computer won't let me click the all images in once)

I recommend you to go to Pumpkin Walk in Cache Valley. We went and went and go for a millions times since I got married. The Pumpkin Walk started in the late 1980s. It's going to strong for the business. Plus it's free!

Back to the reality and back to work and knitting. Happy Halloween.

Welcome Fall

We have been playing with new app: snapchat. We love it. It's fun to do. Also it helps me with "love me in the picture" I hate being in the pictures due to my post-pregnancy fat. (Yes, I am working out lately. I am doing yoga that works for me.) Oh, also it is good moment and memories.

We went to hike in Rattlesnake Trail in Sardine Canyon. I saw the trees are changing. I wanted to be surround the trees of full the fall colors. So we went. I absolutely love it. The heat is still here. I remembered last about April that I was so thrilled that spring has sprung. And now it is fall that I am not that excited like I used to. I always LOVE fall season. I am just sad that the bright, warm, sunny, and long daylight season is over. I won't see it again until about in May. I used to go to the Starbucks for PSL aka pumpkin spice latte. But I am lost in interested of it. I don't drink latte anymore. I prefer drink a black coffee with no milk, sugar, and whipped cream. My body can't really stand the dairy production anymore. My body is changing. Well, that is good news, right? The lattes are high in calories. A black coffee is zero calories. (I couldn't drink sodas, milk, juice, and alcohol; a very little of alcohol)

I started to knit this Reversible Listed Cowl. I was at the local yarn shop- Knit Unique a few days ago. I spotted the bright pink-purple colors yarn and I knew that I want to knit this in cowl. I wanted to knit the colorful of the neon, bright colors because the bright colors are gone until about April. It helps. I don't want to knit the dark colors. I started this a week ago.

Before I was too deep for knitting, I eat the bad food. I gained the weight really bad. I ate the sugary food every night after dinner. And now, I stopped a while ago, if I need the sugar food, I knit instead. To calm down my crazy for sugar. Also get away from the kitchen room. I have been visiting my dieting doctor for over two years. So I have been knitting crazy than before and eat the small amount of the meals- 3 times a day. I lost some of the weight, but still need to lose more.

Knitting rocks!

I look pretty, huh? I love snapchat. I don't wear the makeup due to the oil face.

I joined the Mystery KAL (knitting a long) Ducenti with the group in ravelry. It's my first time doing this. I want to be involved the knitting club. So last Sunday, it released the clue #1 of 4. I am all done for part clue #1. I am waiting for the next clue #2 on next Sunday. What is mystery for?-- There is NO pictures, measurement in the pattern. You knit and get the picture after you knit. I have been wanting to do that since. I can't join for M-Club due to $290. So I joined this one pattern of mystery. Hopeful next year, I can sign up for M-club.  I am obsessed this knitter, Laura.

I used to obsessed with this knitter, Stephanie. But now I am not in big interested in her. She stopped use Ravelry a while ago. 

I just love with Laura's patterns and beads. KAL is more fun. She is using Ravelry a lot. It's easier to get in touch of her. Stephanie never reply/answer to the people that are fan of her. Laura even did replied me in my Etsy shop, and yes she is also Etsy shop owner. So that's how I got into deep in knitting than eat the bad foods and complained about my weight. 

Happy Tuesday. I am going back to knitting. Yes, I am ignoring the adulthood and chores. 

Quiet......

I am watching Craftsy: Knitting Texture One Motif At A Time. I am enjoying to watch with Laura Nelkin classes. She is a good teacher. 

Cheers!!! Shawl with beads. I ordered it from Craftsy.

Yarn: Cloudborn Fibers Merino Superwash Sock Twist. I am using large size (60 stitches). I made the stitch marker: sea turtle . Aren't they that cute? I love sea turtle. I love being under the sea. I always want to go to the clearest water beach, aka hawaii or bora bora. 

I just want to be quiet time and knit. I was little crazy in these days with my disorders. Knitting helps to calm me down. 

To be honest, I want to knit all the patterns of Laura Nelkin's patterns. I am obsessing about her. 

Before yarn. 

My neighbor's cat was sitting on top of the fence. She looked up to see me. She caught an another mice in my backyard. She is shy cat. She won't let us to pet her. 

A roving 100% merino into yarn.

In the next day, I have been spinning when the kids were with their grandparents for two days. I got it finished when the kids are home. I spun in under 12 hours, this isn't me. I had a good time of freedom time without the kids. 

I used chain-plied the yarn. It was only one on bobbin. It is about 120 yards and sport weight. 

The heavy smoke from Plymouth. It was human caused. I think it was spread to about 10k acres. I could be wrong. This came from my front yard head west. I love the orange-red sun. Later in the night time, we saw the creepy red moon. I was little spooky. 

The smoke was heading to the east from my backyard. 

So far in the summer, here in the western states have really drought lands. We have mini fire in the canyon. The firefighters were working hard to put the fire out very quickly. I love Cache Valley town. Most the big fires are came from Salt Lake City. We were lucky in this county where there were mini fires. We are 80 miles north from Salt Lake City. 

It's crazy. The mountains are so so so dry. You could see the yellow grasses on the mountain. I don't use water sprinkle for my grass, it hards to stay green in this drought weather. I am saving my money and water. Plus the pipe is still broken. No, our grass is not very yellow like the mountain has. We need rain, but I love the sun so much! I am not looking forward for darker season. 

Yep, you got this right. At the first, I thought it was a joking. I was shocking to see this in reality after I watched the news on TV. My face was like, are you kidding me? It surely does smells like a swedish  fish candy. But it is too sweeter that I don't really like.

I need to go back and knitting. Knitting is the best thing in my life.