Our Summer

Well, it's always hard to think what to put on subject title before I can start to blog. We just got back home from our one week vacation in Bear Lake with Derek's families. We didn't want to go home. It was nice vacation. The weather was cooler than our home. We had to used fireplace, because the AC was so cold, we tried to adjusted the temperature but it wasn't working. I loved it so much. It was nice to use a fireplace in summer time. Yes our hotel room has a gas fireplace. I miss the California King bed, it was so roomy for us. I realized that I didn't take the pictures of our vacation.

Emma had a bad skin reaction from the dryness and too much of swimming pool. I had to go to the store to bought a Vaseline lotion for her. On Thursday, her skin was much better. We were not allowed her to go to swimming for rest of our vacation. She can only goes to the lake without chemical.

I didn't went outdoor that much, because I don't want to get sunburn. I get sunburn very easily. I don't want to feel the burn at work when I get home. I just stayed indoor at the most of time with the families. Derek went to the golf with his guys families, he had SMALL sunburn after 8 hours in the sun without sunscreen on him. I'm jealous. Also I was avoiding the insects bis too. At the lake, the water was too cold for me, because it was only 75-80 F degrees outside temperatures and it wasn't hot enough to go in. I only went in by my knees length. The all families went in. Last year, the most of adults didn't went in the lake, only the kids and me and Derek. So I thought that everyone probably don't in this year again. So I didn't changed into swimsuit. I brought my swimsuit in case. I wasn't happy about because everyone went in, except me and Derek's parents. We left early to cook a dinner, it was our turn to cook for the families.

Yes, I did knitting too. I never leave behind my knitting. I always bring my knitting with me everywhere. I was knitting Poca by Laura Nelkin. It was too hot to knit this with heavy wool yarn in a hottest day in summer, but I was surprised that it was cooler enough for me to knit.

I indeed feel so weird to be returned to work. Now it's back to normal now.

I have been knitting a lot since back home from Bear Lake. I'm knitting this and this and this. I just finished knit this. I'm trying to get them finish. It's hard, because I'm a mom and an employee. Also housework doesn't clean itself too.

Last month - June - the kids had their first baseball players. They didn't like it. They want soccer. It was hardest month for me, because I was almost never home. Work, game, errands, sleep, and  repeat for a month. I was so happy that we went to Bear Lake, because I haven't been off from work for  7 months, I so much needed time off from adulthood life. Now July is almost over and I feel better. I'm really excited for school soon start then my life will be so much easier. And so excited for autumn to come, I hate summer heat and wildfires. I noticed that we didn't go to the swimming pool center, compare to last ten years. Since we moved and we don't go to Aquatic center because our previous house was one block away from it. Now we are 8 miles away from Logan. We go to the Hyrum lake because it is a few blocks away from us. We even can walk to the lake to save our car ticket for parking lot.

Wyatt is 6th grade and Emma is 4th grade. Wyatt has ADHD. So he will gets medicine for it so he can be focus at school.

So there you go. See you soon.

Nothing News...

Our life is pretty busier than before. My work schedule changed, I work on Wednesday to Saturday now. Off Sunday to Tuesday. Derek works on Sunday to Thursday, off Thursday night to Sunday night- he works on Sunday night to Wednesday night(make it Thursday counts due to midnight).

I am getting worry about this summer when the school are out, the kids will run out of food during summer time. Recently, spring break the kids ran out the food within a week after shopping. I will figure out....

I just started to watch Dr. Pimple Popper aka Dr. Sandra Lee on TLC- I can't get this off of my mind that which is so super annoyed!

I just start this project- Poca I had to use two different needle sizes on each hands due to my gauge swatch to match in the pattern.

Oh dear..... stop that, dear mind.... stop that.... I need sue to Dr. Sandra Lee.... Ahem....

Wyatt started his new medicine for his ADD. That worries me.....

That's all I think of saying.... I am going to take a hot shower, I am sick with stomach bug- not fun... I ran to the toilet in every 30 minutes... I think I had food poisoning from BlueBird restaurant- Derek's families party.

I'll Make A Short Story.....

1. I finished two projects within 2 weeks. I finished this and this. Now I am knitting this then I will finish this.

2. These in the past days lately, I just wanted to knitting and do nothing.

3. Otherwise that chores yelled at my full name: JHTG (for my private identity, some of you already know my name), clean me! So I can't ignore my chores or I will be insane with a full house of messy.

4. I watched Johnny English spikes again #3, I love Rowan the actor. He made me laugh and that what I needed.

5. I am so sad because I still don't want winter to be over. I hate summer. I hate the heat. I hate summer activities. I told my husband-- I want to get into coma, wake me up for work then come home and go back to coma-- repeat this until autumn arrives.

6. I am currently watching James Bond movies. I was hesitating to watch 1980s. I like 1995 to presents. Better technology than before.

7. I found out that my brother is getting divorced, I am worrying about it.

8. Work- it is still great job so far. I like the co-workers and bosses.

9. I love my new hometown now. I went to Logan, I was like ahh, too many people and cars and so crowded. I love the feeling of calm and peace small town called my home. I am happy that I live and work in the same town. I don't go to Logan that often. I only went just outside Logan's boundary for stores.

10. I freak love this bath bomb! My skin was so super softer, Derek was surprised when he pet me. Oh and smell so good! It's smell autumn. Definitely will buy more! Worth it!

11. I need to go and put a cream on my feet from Laura Nelkin's the N Club that she made the balmy lotion for feet. Before Derek can have his beauty nap before work.

That will be all...

Well, I Am Back

Well, I am trying to get back to write my blog from now on if I can. Our life is changed since I posted my last blog. Two years since I blogged. I am sorry if you are waiting for my new blog. I know how this feels like. I am waiting for my favorite knitter to writes her blog. She is always blogging for almost every weekly, but now she is starting to stop or slow down now.

I don't know how to start what to say first..... I will make a list than story for today.

1. Derek's work is changing into 12 hours shift. No more 8 hours shift. No, it is not just for him, it's worldwide company. I am nervous about this. The shifts are only 3 to 4 days, not 7 days a week. Week one- 3 days work and 4 days off work. Week two- 4 days work and 3 days off work- this is bi-weekly 12 hours shifts for all. Is that makes a sense?

2. We sold our first house last October 16, 2018. We moved to Hyrum. We bought townhouse that was just brand new built before we moved in. The reasons are so millions why we sold our house, I will give you a few: tax property is getting higher and higher, too many problems to fix- A/C is so much needed to replace and we don't have $2,500 for it, lawn sprinkle system is ALWAYS broke every spring, mortgage is getting higher and higher, and we wanted burden off our shoulders. Also we don't have PMI, we don't want it. We deposited 21% down payment to get PMI out. Everything is brand new, so we don't have to worry about our house so we can focus on pay off our debts.

3. It was so hard to adjusting this new lifestyle in new town and new house. I had gone to doctor office for a few months and I am on new medicine. Anxiety and depress disorders are NOT fun at all!

4. Wyatt is struggling in his new school. He doesn't want to do anything what his teacher asked him to do. He wetted his pants more than once on purpose to avoided homework. So we made the rules for him- no iPad while school week. He can have it when it's weekend/no school days. He does like new school, but doesn't like to do homework.

5. Emma loves unicorn so much. She begs me to get buy her more make-ups on her face. I only got her a few- lipstick, powder face, kids eyeshadows. She starts to like her new school. At first, she was struggled to get up for school. She kept said that she doesn't want to go to school. Now it's improving.

6. I got a new job. YES, a job! I know! I vowed myself that I would never get a job. But the world has another plan for me. I hate money. I work at Hyrum McDonald's to be closer to home than 15 minutes drive to Logan daily. It was overwhelming for me at the beginning. Now it is 3 weeks since I got in.

7. My dad passed away last June 19, 2018. 2018 was hardest year ever! Money problems, house problems, dad's sickness, kids struggles, family problems(my younger brother is not getting along with his family, he prefers his wife's family), and we had to stepped out of our comfort zone, because we knew that we can't stay in this zone. We had to get out before the things get worse.

8. No, we didn't trade car. We still have black Hyundai car. I want to get this pay off then we can buy truck. Then we won't buy another vehicle for the next 20 years. I am tired of payments.

9. Why, yes I am still knitting. I sold my spinning wheel, I don't knit with handspun yarns because what if I need more yards. I don't have a time for spinning, it takes FOREVER. Not with my new job schedule. I only knitting. Nothing else. I downsized pretty a lot of my hobbies before we sold our house. I only knitting Nelkin Designs for now due to no time. Life is getting busier. I am subscribing her clubs to save my money for yarns. My local yarn shop: Knit Unique is closed for business due to financial problems. I am sad. But it's ok because I am still visiting to Bountiful and the LYS is in Salt Lake City- 15 minutes drive from there.

10. My youngest brother finally married! No, not to the old lady, married the same as his age! Just had a baby recently, he named him- RJ: Robert Jacob. Me, Jacob, and Jayden are getting along well with our mom, Justin refuses. I am sad.

11. We bought iPhone 8 plus. Just because.

12. It's heavy snow here this season, I am so happy. I keep saying to myself: MORE snow please. I got my wish.

13. My Christmas tree is still UP! I am not getting it down anytime soon.

14. I am obsessing with Mrs. Meyers cleaner. I love the smell lavender. It's my favorite flower. I also have hand soap, hand sanitizer, and multi purpose cleaner. I am planning on to buy air spray in Macey's.

15. Oh yes, my new house does have a soaker tub- it's a MUST for me. Fireplace- electric fireplace.

16. Our guniea pig, Reeses died in December 2017. It was hard to see her go. We had to put her to sleep due to pains. I remember when I held her, she doesn't want to let go of me.

17. Yes, I am still drinking coffee. It's a MUST for me. Stop judging.

18. What am I working on my knitting: Fingerlake Shawl- It's the N club. I am trying to knitting one project at a time due to my new lifestyle with a job. My goal this year is to knit 50 projects before 2019 ends.

19. I am thinking about getting a cat. Yes, our townhouse is pet permitted.

20. Lucky, the pug passed away 2 weeks ago. He was 17 years old. His vet was in shocked that he lived longest life. Gunner, the black lab is still alive. I still love him so much. He acted so strange on the day our dad died.

21. Derek's dad finally retired of 46 years work at Schreiber. He doesn't want to retired, he was kept postponing his retirement twice last year. Derek's mom convinced him to retired before November 1st, so he did retired on halloween day.

22. I am not happy that Patriots won AGAIN! I am rooting for Rams at Super Bowl.

23. We switched to Purple VRS from Soreson VRS, because purple offered us a free iPad and a free apple MacBook Air. Just in time to get new iPad when our old iPad was getting worse and save our money. So we are still with Purple VRS. We are using on laptops and iPhone app for it. Because we haven't set up our house phone VRS yet. The cable is in family room and I am trying to fugue where to set up a desk for it. So I am not worrying about it, because it was good with our iPhone app if someone calls us.

24. We haven't gone to a family vacation, our last vacation was Disneyland in California. Last summer, we went to Bear Lake with Derek's family.

25. I quitted Etsy shop owner due to complicated with tax.

Now, there you go.

Too Much of Constant Pains, Minds Chaos, Emotions Up & Down

Hello? blog, sorry I haven't been in touch with you. Sometimes I don't want to write to you. Or lazy. Today's weather is so weird, but I LOVE it! I love snow. Yes, it, indeed, is snowing all day. I am wearing Bath & Body Works snow perfume. I LOVE IT!! It's out of stock. My mom gave it to me last weekend. I am hoping it is jinx to today's weather and yup, snow was here. I still want winter instead summer~ that is very strange because last year, I wanted summer to stay when the autumn approached. I am wearing snowman p.j.'s. Love love love!

Bad news about me~ Last Monday, I got in a bike accident that involves vehicle that hits me when I was pedaling. Fortunately, there is no broke bone in my body. I have so MANY of bruises on all over of my body. Yes, helmet is a MUST for me. It's like a seatbelt for bike. Who knows what happen if I don't wear it, but I don't want to think about it. I got hit on between 1000 west and rainbow road. A lady lives on the corner of Rainbow Rd, helped with me and driver. Yes the polices, firetruck, and ambulance did showed up. I got to the hospital by ambulance. It's my first time been in ambulance. I cried and cried because of pain on shoulder. At first, I thought it is broke but wasn't. My left shoulder muscle is torn up and it really painful! Yes, I went through with the Bear River Healthcare, insurances, and questions by the polices and doctors. Now I am sitting on a camo recliner sofa with strongest painkillers medicine. Derek took two days off from work to help with me. Derek was working double shifts on that day when he found out that I had accident and he immediately clock out to met me at the hospital. Sheri came and to be with us. My parents were in Twin Falls, Idaho for a little trip.

Yep, I can't knitting, because it is my knitting arm that got torn up. I just wanted to bike to count for my exercise.

For the bike riders~ WEAR THE DAMN HELMET! THAT SAVED MY LIFE! It's very important to wear helmet better than feeling stupid. Safe is the smartest than the feeling of stupidity.

I do know how the cyclist feel like after being hit by vehicle. OUCH, OWWIE....

That's all for now, I am tired from the pain constant 24/7.



Psst, wear. a. helmet. !!!!!!.

I Am In So Much Pain

I had root canal on upper tooth. Dentist accident caused it, how it happened?~ He put the filling too closer to the nerve. He said, oops. I am hoping he will omit some of the dentist bill. It is sooooo painful and annoying. I have oxy and tramadol HCL medicines. I prefer oxy, but he won't let me get another one so he got me tramadol HCL medicine. It is not really working for the pain. I only have 2 oxy left. So I will take it after tramadol is fading away from my system.

I have been playing with it and it caused more hurt but it is so annoying. When I bite, it hurts but really needs to bite to relief the pressure the teeth. I have been eating soft food~ great harvest pumpkin bread, yogurt, cuties oranges, I think that is it.

Anyway, I am knitting the Clue 3 of Creatrix shawl that was just released last night of Clue 3 pattern. I made a few times of mistake due to the pain of my tooth. I had a hard time to stay concentrate. So I put it away and walked away. This morning, I was able to have some of focus and fixed the mistake in shawl. I need to be more carefully with this garter lace, it is really confuse stitches. So pay extra closer attention, Jenna!

So that's it for now. Painful is unbearable for me right now. And I am knitting super slow.

Spring Break

Our spring break is good. We didn't go out for vacation. We were supposed to go to St. George, but we canceled due to finance reason. We went to Bountiful for my cousin's wedding (Lindsey Evans Rice). One thing I learned about her younger age (toddler to child) is, she ate only white foods: white rice, white potato, white bread, white ice cream, you named it~ everything is must to be white color. Her dad, John, said you need to marry rice, because she was always ate rice. She married a guy that has last name is Rice. I told Derek that is so ironic! Maybe John jinxed it. I think that is pretty funny. We did stayed at hotel~ Country Inn~ our room door key is dead. The cards won't work, we had to asked the front desk to opened for us every time we returned to our room. Yes, the front desk did asked us if we want to transfer to different room, I said no because I wanted a king bed and the kids are in the another room with couch that has folded bed inside. Also I like the window, because I can opened it to full open than second and third floors windows for safety reason. So the front desk gave us discounted price for our staying due to the dead battery key card insert. I am happy about that. It was cost us $185 but we got $150~ $35 off.

I started MKAL (mystery knit a long) for Creatrix shawl with everyone on the ravelry group. I am now on Clue 2.

Here is my picture of Clue 2 of Creatrix MKAL. I used pink highlight marker to cross off the row that I have been worked on. I hate post-it. It is indeed work out my brain. I have to be too carefully to read the chart and written instructions. I can't knit when I am tired or I will get a lot of mistakes. I don't want to risk that. I am not in rush now.

I just ordered this bag from Laura Nelkin. Because why not. Why, yes I am obsessed with her. Everyone have their own fans.

PS, President Trump just approved for to bomb to Syria country because of the chemical that killed the children. I was shocking about that. I don't against that because I am living in America. I can't do anything with it. But one thing I am hoping that we don't have WW3. I am too young, still.

I Don't Really Like "Typo"...

Knitting~ I always had misread, count how many stitches and rows with error, sometimes pattern do have an error that needs to be corrected, and oops knit into the wrong stitch or drop a stitch off of needle.

I had a few "fought" with my currently project because I was tired or not really pay closer attention. It is lace knitting, too thin yarn, easily into mistake. But it is fun. I am now working on center connector then I will begin at edge part after this connector. I am excited for beads too.

Lately, I was in mood for winter to stay so I can knit and watch Netflix~ THAT is so wrong! You dummy, brain. It's spring for god's sake!

I need to go and finish this project before April 1st for new project with the group of knitters~ that's call: Mystery Knit A Long. We knit something that we don't know what we are knitting into until we get it done then we will know what it is. It actually fun. This is my second MKAL. I am planning to sign up for the M Club this fall when it register opens. I should have sign up last fall, oh well.

PS, I have more than 3 mosquito bites. *itches all over my body* I took a hot bath with oils to help calm down my itching body. I am blaming on the kids, because they kept door opened for a long period of time and the mosquitoes got in.

I am going to knit for a while before I go to bed. I just can't stop! Happy knitting for me!

It Is Not Early, Is It?

Spring is HERE! Squee! Finally, I can able do to exercise outdoor than bored indoor for a long time. I love to see animals are coming out of their caves, the tree leafs are growing back, daylight is getting longer, and sun is getting brighter. I am too happy to see the chicken (3 blacks and one white) in horse field by the horses. Farm markets are coming back. Everything is coming back from their sleeping zone.

Wyatt got a plant cabbage from his class, so we planted right away in our front yard. My backyard is not great for garden place. So I am hoping this will growing like it should be. My tulips flowers are out and blooming.

Today, I went to Logan River Trail for my walk, I walked and jogged for 2 miles. I haven't been jogging for long, long, and LONGER time! It felt so good! I am looking forward to hike more trails in cache county. I can't wait for pool to open!

Spring is bringing me much of alive and happier from so tired and dark in winter season. But one thing I will miss~ plenty more time knitting and netflix movies. But we need to play outdoor.

I am knitting bamboo shawl, feel like spring shawl because it is so thin lace yarn weight. It is pretty purple color, not too dark, nor brighter color.

Happy spring and go outside and PLAY!

Proof Of Life

Since from beginning of March, I became totally obsessed about Laura Nelkin patterns. I have tons following knitters in the world that I am their fan. Today, it is Laura Nelkin that I am obsessing about.  I decided a few days after I read about her MKAL(Mystery Knit A Long) for April project. I was planning not to join this time, but somehow my mind shifted and wanted to knit this MKAL. I was hesitating at first place. After I read thread on forum in my ravelry, so I purchased a pattern for MKAL. I went downstairs to my basement and looked for yarns that will be right for this project. Turned it out that none of my stash boxes of yarns are not right type for this. I was little grumpy and considered to quit, but I couldn't because I am so obsessed. So I ignore and went ahead and ordered the yarns and beads from Jimmy Beans Wool online. I wanted light colors, not dark like winter colors. I was lucky, because it was two yarns in stock of that aster color, now it is out of stock. The beads are crystal clear silver lined Miyuki 6/0~ 20 grams and 8/0~ 100 grams beads, I was shocked to see it is 100 grams of 8/0 beads! Normally for general, it is 10-20 grams of 8/0. I needed 20 grams of 6/0 and 65 grams of 8/0. I love to have a lot of beads, especially 100 grams! Whoo!

Oh shit! There is flood in the bathroom, I gotta go. What a joy of being adulthood. (It was clogged from Emma's)

Anyway, I am back.

I have Facebook and instagram accounts. They are great to talk to any people over in the world. For example, I would never be known about Laura Nelkin if we don't have this internet, phone, etc like in 1800's. Also I do have a hard time to believe that Laura is real, not robot on internet. She is over there in eastern of US. I see my friends, family over and over on Facebook and instagram that is real so yes Laura is real on the other side of US. I am really happy that she exists or her design patterns would not be here. So do Ravelry too. In 1990's, there were no knitting online, only book publishers. There wasn't any online classes. You can't find more patterns than present time. I am really happy Ravelry is existing. It's MUCH easier with knitting life~ classes, yarns suggest, pattern, chat room, help tutorials, etc. I started to knit in 2009, ravelry opened in 2007, two years after. It like you can see, read, shop, classes, map, vacation, events, news, etc on Facebook. It is same with ravelry.

Right now I am working on Synthesis shawl, designed by Laura Nelkin. I finished knit a swatch for gauge for MKAL, it is now drying on block mat in basement. One great thing is basement~ the kids and future pets are not allow going in basement, so all of my workings are "protecting" from them.

PS, I created a memories book~ chatbook. You can look up on Facebook. It's so great! It only costs us $8 per book. I don't do scrapbook. I rather to knit than scrapbook.

The Hand Of Dentisy

Some day is hard to write blog, because I don't know what to say. Today is hard day. The kids' school was half day, they are out at noon. I don't have any clue why it is half day at school today. The kids are having meltdown when we got home from Smith's grocery store for food. They act like they are toddlers. Derek and I had headache because of them. They weren't good behavior in the store. They continued to be whine for the rest of afternoon. So Derek and I had enough so he went upstairs to get the medicines (sleep medicines) to calmed them down. So they, included Derek, took the naps. I was watching The Crown.

Being an adulthood and a parenthood is so HARD! I read the news stated that the house price and interest are rising. The grocery is also rising price. $100 is not enough food to cover for two weeks. Utah is becoming California. I can't make dinner everyday because the ingredients are so expensive to make a menu for one dinner. The kids are keeping hungry and hungry. I had a breakdown because of that. It is just unfair for human on the earth. We are stuck on the earth, we live here on the earth. That means we are suppose to be free of living, like the wild animals.

So I am knitting Lola's Choice fingerless mitts with the beads. One is down and one more to go. Knitting and Netflix are only to keeping me calm down with the chaos.

Hands~ we are work hard on the earth for the livings. It's not easy. One thing is so hard is restaurant, (Chuck-a-Rama) because I love it. I don't usually eat fast food restaurants. Only the real food like Chuck-a-Rama, their rolls are so damn good!

*sighs* but that is life. I am just glad that knitting and Netflix are existing. I don't know what to do without them.

Blur

All is blur right now. I got the new heavier drawers for my kitchen. The original was too cheap and break. One problem is~ we had a hard time to put the original pull handles on the new ones. Also we need to buy the long wheel for drawers to pull out. The original are shorter.

I finished two projects today. Purple owl hat for Emma. Emma was happy when I told her that I finished it.  Crochet beads necklace~ I prefer bracelet than necklace because it is too long to crochet with so fine yarn, my pinky finger is sores. So I will only make bracelet than necklace.

Knitting blur~ I still will have to knit one more of long strip of wrap by Kirsten Omdhal. It's 132 stitches cross rows. I really want to knit something new. I got a mail from Laura~ Lola's Choice yesterday. I love the surprised is what is inside of this mail that she mailed to her fan member knitters (I am one of them 😃).  I was just started knitting a swatch for to obtain the gauge called for in project. I picked fingerless mitts. Since it has a short yardage of yarn. I think that weird to have the beads on the socks. So mitts is better choice for me. But still want to find something fun easy to knit and watching Netflix. I am currently watching The Crown.

Food blur~ I really crave for Chuck-a-Rama, their rolls. Yummy. I love the way of homemade rolls that like pioneer made. I love 1800s food. Chuck-a-Rama is my favorite restaurant right now. I don't like fast food restaurants anymore, too cheap, and too oily. I am still on weight loss so far. I have nutruifood box to help me to lose some of weight. I am hoping to achieve the goal of 110 lbs.

Money blur~ You know money- we have to pay the bills for life. Boo! I just really want to go to Bora Bora or Hawaii or Caribbean islands. But nope, we have to pay our mortgage. I really need some of money to buy the stuffs for house projects~ like drawers above. We are getting our roof replace sooner. Our shingles are blew away off of our roof. It is really bad damaged roof right now. Oh what a joy of being an adulthood.

OK, I don't want to feel anymore of blurs, so I am going to watch The Crown to calm my mind and try to find something to knit.  

The Hardest Part Is: Attitude

When I read Yarnharlot blog today, as for me being deaf person~ I can't go to the retreat in Washington to be with the knitters and in the classes. This is cost about $1,500.00 per person. I can't afford for an interpreter! I did asked them for an interpreter, they don't answer me back that which it is hurtful. I don't know what to do. I have been always hate being DA person~ deaf. I hate it! When I was a little girl, I cried and cried and begged my parents for fix my ears so I can hear it. So the doctors said that it's won't working on me because I am so heavy die-hard deaf. I asked my parents why am I deaf? Why didn't Justin nor Jake become deaf?!? They don't know why. I was just born that way. If I were never deaf, I will never have met my husband. Being hearing would be MUCH easier life. It's so hard, I have to rely on my kids for the noise. I am nervous about my future when the kids are move out of my house. So I am hoping that the pet(s) will help me in the future. And one another is: I really want to go to Rhinebeck in upstate New York for wool festival fair. But who will interpreter for me and my husband? Yeah, that. I could take my daughter with me for this retreat and fairs so she can interpreter for me, maybe? Some of the people said: You can do it. You can do anything like hearing people do. For me, yeah right! Examples? You betcha. A pilot? An operator? An interpreter? Be secretary for President of United State? An army? Be teacher? An actress? A train driver? Taxi driver? Be CEO? A doctor? A dentist? You name it! I did wanted to be a teacher for elementary school (No, not for deaf schools, you see them almost everywhere, even in deaf community) that closer to my house. These above of the lists that are requirement to use headset, voice to talk, use telephone, etc that what deaf people CANNOT do! Some of the people said to me: You are so lucky, You are blessing, something like that~ No, I am not lucky person. I can't do what hearing people do. Get reality, you guys! (I am afraid of the polices, they usually yell at you and I couldn't hear it then they will shoot at me and I die!) There you go, that's why I don't social, party, go out in the city. That's why I REFUSE to get a job. I prefer to stay home. Etsy is good small job for me. So that one way how I got depression in my life.

What about family? Well, that is hard too. When I want to be involved, I always tap, tap, tap harder at my parents' shoulders to interpret for me. Sometimes they said no. Even in the theatre. I stopped go to the theatre a long time ago. So that how I started to knitting in my life when I am in full of hearing people around me. Derek's mother hates me when I do that, she said that it's not nice in front of her when we have family party or something like that. It's hurt me because she DOESN'T know how to be deaf and never has been in my shoes life. So I ignored her and go on knitting.

What about deaf community? Well, sometimes I wanted to met the new friends that are live closer to me than drive 100 miles away just for two hours party. Examples? You betcha. A short moment of chat with a stranger person in store, talk to the neighbors, talk to the companies who fixed my house, you name it. Sometimes I don't want to talk to the deaf people because they changed, they move, bad gossips/news, etc. I even don't have a best friend(always talk to each other everyday, always help each other, rely on each other, etc.)

What about my husband, Derek? Haha, I fucking LOVE him! That's one reason why I wanted to marry a deaf man so he knows how I feel. Both of us know who are our deaf friends/people and deaf community. Marrying him is the BEST thing of my life. Examples? You betcha. I don't have to be left out if he is hearing and talking to the people, go to the theatre, I make a lot of noises in the house, I don't want him to hear my farts, hear the music, talk to the stranger people in the store, I hate one simple sentence what hearing people talk about like they talk for 15 minutes~ one simple sentence is not 15 minutes worth of talk. I hate summary stories at the campfire, party, theatre, etc.

There you go. It's not easy, simple life. (I couldn't hear a fire alarm and carbon monoxide alarm, door ring bell, telephone rings, oven dings, laundry dings, my kids turned so higher volume on the TV up to 80 volume number~ that's loud and I was embarrassed front of the neighbors, yes they can hear from it)

It's so hard part of is attitude in the lifehood. I have to put a fake smile on my face for public and always said "I'm fine".

I am thankful for knitting that is existing and in my life.

No, I didn't finish a purple owl hat for Emma. Wrap is still in processing.

Feel Like Forever

Well, finally it is March~ spring month. I am so excited for spring upcoming. I was surprised that last January was not bad month. I usually have cabin fever, more depression, longer/darker in January/February. February was not bad month either until last week of February that I want March to be here. My purpose is for spring season to arrives. Now March is here. I feel really~finally move on with time when March came than in January and February. It always happens after Christmas. I hate longer, desperate, darker days. But one pro is~ more time of knitting and catch up on Netflix.

I started to knitting the kids' hats last month. I think I did mentioned this in earlier post Danielle Beer's daughter~ I gave a pink cat hat to her, because it is fitting her as longer as she is still toddler. I bought a purple owl a few days ago and I started it now~ you know, spring is upcoming this very sooner!

I finished Tool Box Cowl in two days ago. Right now, it is drying on the mesh blocker hanger. I love that blocker. I am so glad this project is so done! I don't want to see color~ orange again~ it's remind me of fall color. I want Easter colors.

Currently project~ Summit American Yak Wrap. I am using Frog Tree Alpaca Sport yarn. I did had high screamed recently after I found out that this yarn is discontinued! So I did looked and looked harder to find two more of those tan colors to just the amount of yards for this project. Whew, I did ordered it and they arrived at my mailbox. It came from Nebraska. My local yarn shop used to have them that where I did bought a while ago. They no longer stock these yarn up due to discontinued. I love that yarn. Hello! It's alpaca! So soft yarn.

Ok, I need to go back to work~ knitting and laundry.

Less Time To Write My Blog

I noticed that I am less and less to write my blog. I am using Instagram/Facebook mostly time. I can make a memories books from Instagram. I like to have something in my hand than online. The pictures are worth more than a thousand words. The pictures are just showing you than I have to write down to get visionary in your mind. I wanted to have a private blog, because blog is like a journal for personal, not for business. Blogger started a long time ago in 2000's. It is now 2017 with the new upgrades everything different than back in 2000. Sometimes the blog is confusing me with the new updates in internet~I am used to the first old ones than upgrade up over and over again. I know where to go with the pages, layout, link, etc but now I had a hard time to find, so I had to played around with my new upgrade blog to find where or which to click on.

Reeses~guinea pig~ is still much alive. When I hold her, I was trying to put her down on the floor to "exercise" around, because her home is box with no space to run. She LOVES home, every time I put her back to her home, she instant jumps off from me. Sometimes we forgot to close up her gate's door, I was surprised to see that she is still there. She never escapes. This is her 5th year life time. This year is probably her last year of her life time. She has a few lumps on her, she is getting older and older.

Knitting~ I am knitting Top This! Hat for the kids. The pink cat hat is too small for Emma, it's short length of cap. I am going to make another purple owl hat for Emma with the correct length of her age. I am currently knitting green elephant hat for Wyatt. I didn't finish the Tool Box cowl, I am trying to get finish before I start a new project. I already started to knit a gauge for next new project. But I want to get the another projects to finish first.

Beads~ I am crocheting the beads crochet necklace. I am obsessed with the beads. I love to watch this video here. I don't crochet. But this one I accepted, because it is hidden stitches with the beads. I love the feeling of the beads on rope.

Winter 2016/2017 wasn't that bad than I thought it will be. January is always depression month for me. Knitting and Netflix are so helpful and keep me company! I am catching up the movies. (Summer has no time for the movies~ DUH summer!) The weather is WORSE ever in the history! The snow was in waist length. We had a hard time to pull back our car out from garage because of the snow on the curve part. Snow~ A LOT! Yes, we did have flooding in Cache Valley. My basement had a small flooded. I panicked! Thank God for Derek's work schedule that he off from work. It was scary. It is not easy to be adulthood of own a house. I told Derek that we live in with parents will be very much easy life. He said fuck yes! But it is our turn. I miss my childhood. Growing up is trapping! We had so much of icicles on our roof, we had to break them often. One of our roof's shingle came off. I want spring to be here. I noticed that I don't love winter anymore. In my childhood is different than now I am. I love spring and summer.

Hello, 2015.. Wait, No- It is already 2017!

2017, huh?!? I am still thinking it is 2015. 2016 went so faster than before. Like the beginning of the top slide down to the end of bumpy slide. I did remembered when the spring was sprung- I was so excited that summer is coming. It came and gone in 2 days of blink eyes. But so far, I am good lately~ I always have January Blue. I am hoping this month I don't have bad blue like usually. I am planning on to watch the movies to catch up on netflix and knitting. Plus, of course, clean the house and exercising too. Yesterday, I was thought it was saturday, anyway we went to the park for the sled hill down. It was fun. I went on too! I want to! Why not? It was good panting work-out for me. Two years ago, I couldn't do it. I went on for 2 shed down, but yesterday I went on more than 5 times! I am improving.

Our christmas was okayest, We didn't went to my parents' house due to badly snowing outside on christmas day. We got white christmas! We went to Derek's parents' christmas party: let me tell you~ It is f*&%ing worse christmas ever I had! Derek's oldest brother blamed on us for the lousy gift for his teenager son. I made very best of points at him about the christmas. He did see that now. So I told Derek, we are NOT going for his family christmas party! We are GOING to my, MINE, me family party for christmas of 2017. I am not buying the presents for Derek's families. Only mine. (Derek's family are so rude, judgey, mean at us because his mother told at our faces (!!!) that we are cheapsake) I had enough of this! I told Derek that I married you, not for your family. Only you! He knows that I don't like his family since I met them. It was hard and it is still hardest!

Anyway, I got apple watch series 2!! Wyatt got more Nerf guns toy, Emma got more dolls, Derek got soap kit and more *&%$# tools (from his family).

Ok, that is it for now.

Happy 2017.

This Holiday Is Must Be Good!!!

Ah, yes. We usually get more money in between October to December. I love that! So I can shopping without stressful. I am almost done with christmas lists shopping.

I saw one house on the 1400 North, there is christmas tree already set up in a living room. I said to myself that is too early! I don't want to get my christmas tree up in early November because it will feel so forever and slower days until 25th of December. I am just focus on the autumn season now. I am enjoying the thanksgiving and autumn first.

Anyway, last Monday, we bought a brand new- NOT USED -car. It is 2016 black Hyundai Sonata Limited, only 200 miles. We had to traded it from our old Nissan 2009 Quest van, because it has too many, a lot, much, a millions of problems for every time I changed the oil in between 3 months since we bought it back in June 2013. Last week, our van broke down and we had to asked a stranger to helped us out to jump up the battery. I was so embarrassed. It is only once, but more than 5 times to jump up since bought it. Before we bought a new ones, Derek did went to Nissan shop and got a battery replaced. The worker of shop told us that our transmission is bad, get this- we replaced it in earlier this year and now it is again, I am not buying new one- $500! I need this money for christmas.  So I decided to have an enough of it. So we went to Hyundai Murdock and bought it. This time it has a warranty. Van doesn't have a warranty.

Van's problems:
1. trunk won't stay up, had to replaced it last year.
2. new battery twice
3. the slide doors' rubber are broke
4. leaking from the heavy rain on top
5. replaced transmission
6. The rugs are stink from wet outside
7. transmission fluid leak
8. new tires last spring due to the pressure low
9. gas recall
10. the driver seat is creak
11. fuse problems
12. warning light of low tires are so annoying!
13. beneath of starter, something is in a cell is really bad, a wire maybe
14. The AC isn't that cold enough in the summer.
15. The remote of key is getting worn out

So I had enough of it. I was planning on to keep this van for good, but nope. It eats our money pretty a lot. We had to use ford credit card and yes we are still paying on it even we have a new car.

Here's a photo:

It's pretty a lot of roomy inside. I was surprisedly. When we rented a car, most of them are so tiny, but not this one. Trunk is so roomy, so do the back seats for the kids from the front seats that are not hit the kids' legs. It has everything same we had van--top range; I hate basic car; especially movie dvd player. 

Good news: we have a lifetime of car wash in Murdock. It's so neat! Save our money from washing. So when its need to wash, we just show up the shop and ask for wash. Plus pro is that Hyundai is opens on Saturdays. Nissan is not opens on Saturdays (WTF!). It has a great mile of gas, it's double more than old van.

I am glad it is right time to get a new ones because of more money to home, so we had an enough of money to down payment deposit. 

We are happy now. Our money will thank for us. 

Oy! October Is Almost Gone!

No, I don't want October to be gone for next year. I freaky love October. I love Halloween. It's so much fun. I love pumpkin. I love special coffee drink in fall season: Pumpkin Spice Latte. (Get this, I had PSL for first time in a longgggg time, I don't usually drink latte- too much dairy, calories, whipping cream, low caffeine and sweet-y. I much prefer to drink just black coffee that which is high caffeine, zero calories.) I made homemade pumpkin pie, again get this, we don't usually eat a lot of the pies. Just one pie with homemade whipping cream.

We are repeating watch the Halloween movies: Hocus Pocus, Hotel Transylvania, The Great Pumpkin; Charlie Brown, The Smurf: Hollow, Mickey's Treat, Alvin and the Chipmunks Halloween, The Addams Family, Corpse Bride, Ghostbuster (2016), The Goonies, Monster High, and Trick or Treaters.

We went to Logan River Trail. I love the leaves fell on the floor. I love to walk in it. It was so beautiful.

We went to the Garden Market for special halloween activities. The kids wanted the pumpkin and paint them. It was free.

I sew the small tote bags for the kids and Christmas presents. I won't show the christmas presents part.

Dinosaur and Shopkins.

I am still working on socks, pink cape for Emma, one more a pair of socks, Mystery Knit A Long shawl, and cowl. I need to finish them first before I can cast on a new project.

I give up. I went to store and bought the costumes for the kids. I was planning for kids to wear again the same costume that they wore it last year to save money. Wyatt lost some of piece of his costume.

Emma: Monster High

Wyatt: Hulk

I will be Hocus Pocus Winnie. I just ordered the costume of her. We haven't decided for Derek's.

We went to American West Heritage Center for Halloween activities. We finally went to the Haunted Hollow in the forest. It was fun and a little bit scary. We couldn't take any pictures due to the dark and jumpy.


Here's of the Pumpkin Walk. I LOVE it! We went there twice, and are planning on to go back again. It's only once in a week of the year.

America flag

Skittles candy

The Late Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon

Doctor Who

Steve Job

The Winnie of Pooh

The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown

The another scene of Charlie Brown

The banner said "Who are you NOT going to vote?

I vote them NONE!

The night before christmas pumpkin. I love it. There are many of the craved pumpkin around. I have many pictures of them. I choose this one for my blog. (My computer won't let me click the all images in once)

I recommend you to go to Pumpkin Walk in Cache Valley. We went and went and go for a millions times since I got married. The Pumpkin Walk started in the late 1980s. It's going to strong for the business. Plus it's free!

Back to the reality and back to work and knitting. Happy Halloween.

Welcome Fall

We have been playing with new app: snapchat. We love it. It's fun to do. Also it helps me with "love me in the picture" I hate being in the pictures due to my post-pregnancy fat. (Yes, I am working out lately. I am doing yoga that works for me.) Oh, also it is good moment and memories.

We went to hike in Rattlesnake Trail in Sardine Canyon. I saw the trees are changing. I wanted to be surround the trees of full the fall colors. So we went. I absolutely love it. The heat is still here. I remembered last about April that I was so thrilled that spring has sprung. And now it is fall that I am not that excited like I used to. I always LOVE fall season. I am just sad that the bright, warm, sunny, and long daylight season is over. I won't see it again until about in May. I used to go to the Starbucks for PSL aka pumpkin spice latte. But I am lost in interested of it. I don't drink latte anymore. I prefer drink a black coffee with no milk, sugar, and whipped cream. My body can't really stand the dairy production anymore. My body is changing. Well, that is good news, right? The lattes are high in calories. A black coffee is zero calories. (I couldn't drink sodas, milk, juice, and alcohol; a very little of alcohol)

I started to knit this Reversible Listed Cowl. I was at the local yarn shop- Knit Unique a few days ago. I spotted the bright pink-purple colors yarn and I knew that I want to knit this in cowl. I wanted to knit the colorful of the neon, bright colors because the bright colors are gone until about April. It helps. I don't want to knit the dark colors. I started this a week ago.

Before I was too deep for knitting, I eat the bad food. I gained the weight really bad. I ate the sugary food every night after dinner. And now, I stopped a while ago, if I need the sugar food, I knit instead. To calm down my crazy for sugar. Also get away from the kitchen room. I have been visiting my dieting doctor for over two years. So I have been knitting crazy than before and eat the small amount of the meals- 3 times a day. I lost some of the weight, but still need to lose more.

Knitting rocks!

I look pretty, huh? I love snapchat. I don't wear the makeup due to the oil face.

I joined the Mystery KAL (knitting a long) Ducenti with the group in ravelry. It's my first time doing this. I want to be involved the knitting club. So last Sunday, it released the clue #1 of 4. I am all done for part clue #1. I am waiting for the next clue #2 on next Sunday. What is mystery for?-- There is NO pictures, measurement in the pattern. You knit and get the picture after you knit. I have been wanting to do that since. I can't join for M-Club due to $290. So I joined this one pattern of mystery. Hopeful next year, I can sign up for M-club.  I am obsessed this knitter, Laura.

I used to obsessed with this knitter, Stephanie. But now I am not in big interested in her. She stopped use Ravelry a while ago. 

I just love with Laura's patterns and beads. KAL is more fun. She is using Ravelry a lot. It's easier to get in touch of her. Stephanie never reply/answer to the people that are fan of her. Laura even did replied me in my Etsy shop, and yes she is also Etsy shop owner. So that's how I got into deep in knitting than eat the bad foods and complained about my weight. 

Happy Tuesday. I am going back to knitting. Yes, I am ignoring the adulthood and chores. 

Quiet......

I am watching Craftsy: Knitting Texture One Motif At A Time. I am enjoying to watch with Laura Nelkin classes. She is a good teacher. 

Cheers!!! Shawl with beads. I ordered it from Craftsy.

Yarn: Cloudborn Fibers Merino Superwash Sock Twist. I am using large size (60 stitches). I made the stitch marker: sea turtle . Aren't they that cute? I love sea turtle. I love being under the sea. I always want to go to the clearest water beach, aka hawaii or bora bora. 

I just want to be quiet time and knit. I was little crazy in these days with my disorders. Knitting helps to calm me down. 

To be honest, I want to knit all the patterns of Laura Nelkin's patterns. I am obsessing about her. 

Before yarn. 

My neighbor's cat was sitting on top of the fence. She looked up to see me. She caught an another mice in my backyard. She is shy cat. She won't let us to pet her. 

A roving 100% merino into yarn.

In the next day, I have been spinning when the kids were with their grandparents for two days. I got it finished when the kids are home. I spun in under 12 hours, this isn't me. I had a good time of freedom time without the kids. 

I used chain-plied the yarn. It was only one on bobbin. It is about 120 yards and sport weight. 

The heavy smoke from Plymouth. It was human caused. I think it was spread to about 10k acres. I could be wrong. This came from my front yard head west. I love the orange-red sun. Later in the night time, we saw the creepy red moon. I was little spooky. 

The smoke was heading to the east from my backyard. 

So far in the summer, here in the western states have really drought lands. We have mini fire in the canyon. The firefighters were working hard to put the fire out very quickly. I love Cache Valley town. Most the big fires are came from Salt Lake City. We were lucky in this county where there were mini fires. We are 80 miles north from Salt Lake City. 

It's crazy. The mountains are so so so dry. You could see the yellow grasses on the mountain. I don't use water sprinkle for my grass, it hards to stay green in this drought weather. I am saving my money and water. Plus the pipe is still broken. No, our grass is not very yellow like the mountain has. We need rain, but I love the sun so much! I am not looking forward for darker season. 

Yep, you got this right. At the first, I thought it was a joking. I was shocking to see this in reality after I watched the news on TV. My face was like, are you kidding me? It surely does smells like a swedish  fish candy. But it is too sweeter that I don't really like.

I need to go back and knitting. Knitting is the best thing in my life.